yeah ok like rach and loo says im ranting! haha so dun have to read this anyway. just feeling abit frustrated today abt alot of stuff i guess...
just feel really confused right now... dunno what to do and whats wrong with me but i think im mad. wish i could just be a doc now in some place far away where ill be too busy to think abt stuff and where i will be doing something fulfilling and meaningful. not that studying isnt la. its just the other things... dunno la.
was kinda thinking if i shld stay in hall again nxt yr but i think if i do ill just have to go thru all this crap again. but its like nxt yr go sch... come home go sch come home will be kinda sian too right. and i know nxt yr if i stay it will be much easier cos i know what to do and my way arnd and stuff and ill be a senior so can just do my own thing and not care abt stuff liao... and eugene and law and ben and waiyu keep asking me to stay for swimming and its qt tempting i guess... cos i know if i dun stay i wun train one cos im a lazy pig but i do like trg la even if there is not much hope haha. and nxt yr fulin will be capt so shld be more structured trgs throughout the yr so tts good rite. and other pple oso keep asking me... was telling daniel today tt i REALLY DUNNO! haha. gosh. im mad la. its just tt the more i stay away from the east i feel like im drifting from all that is near and dear to me, like my church frens and home and stuff and boyboy and everything inthe east tt i really enjoy doing and like now im in the west all the time its like ive been cut off from all that cos when i go home its just for a short while and then i have to leave and most of tt time im in church anyway so dun really get to like just go and hang out at siglap like i used to...and theres the other thing too. dunno la praypraypray! and like dan said ive still got time to decide la so see how lor.
and recently ive been kinda turned off by someone and i feel abit bad abt it but just like have this aversion going on when i see that person and its so bad! and i feel bad too. but cant help it la dunno y i feel like tt oso. rarrs.
anyway the race was ok i guess... girls got 4th and guys was joint 3rd... we all agreed that we lost to the better teams la so its ok i guess but i really do think we have a great team spirit and stuff hehs. :) yah so qt happy abt tt i guess and i guess i do like the feeling of competing and stuff. yeahhh epinephrine is good for meeeee :)
anyway today had a gross tutorial haha it was rubbish mannnnn. sighz timmo is nagging me abt mugging now haha how ironic
its true. speaking to my church frens makes me happy again :)
just feel really confused right now... dunno what to do and whats wrong with me but i think im mad. wish i could just be a doc now in some place far away where ill be too busy to think abt stuff and where i will be doing something fulfilling and meaningful. not that studying isnt la. its just the other things... dunno la.
was kinda thinking if i shld stay in hall again nxt yr but i think if i do ill just have to go thru all this crap again. but its like nxt yr go sch... come home go sch come home will be kinda sian too right. and i know nxt yr if i stay it will be much easier cos i know what to do and my way arnd and stuff and ill be a senior so can just do my own thing and not care abt stuff liao... and eugene and law and ben and waiyu keep asking me to stay for swimming and its qt tempting i guess... cos i know if i dun stay i wun train one cos im a lazy pig but i do like trg la even if there is not much hope haha. and nxt yr fulin will be capt so shld be more structured trgs throughout the yr so tts good rite. and other pple oso keep asking me... was telling daniel today tt i REALLY DUNNO! haha. gosh. im mad la. its just tt the more i stay away from the east i feel like im drifting from all that is near and dear to me, like my church frens and home and stuff and boyboy and everything inthe east tt i really enjoy doing and like now im in the west all the time its like ive been cut off from all that cos when i go home its just for a short while and then i have to leave and most of tt time im in church anyway so dun really get to like just go and hang out at siglap like i used to...and theres the other thing too. dunno la praypraypray! and like dan said ive still got time to decide la so see how lor.
and recently ive been kinda turned off by someone and i feel abit bad abt it but just like have this aversion going on when i see that person and its so bad! and i feel bad too. but cant help it la dunno y i feel like tt oso. rarrs.
anyway the race was ok i guess... girls got 4th and guys was joint 3rd... we all agreed that we lost to the better teams la so its ok i guess but i really do think we have a great team spirit and stuff hehs. :) yah so qt happy abt tt i guess and i guess i do like the feeling of competing and stuff. yeahhh epinephrine is good for meeeee :)
anyway today had a gross tutorial haha it was rubbish mannnnn. sighz timmo is nagging me abt mugging now haha how ironic
its true. speaking to my church frens makes me happy again :)
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